{update: cameron}

although i've learned over the years that life and work in china demand fexibility, it is still a place where i often feel god stretching (or breaking) my type A personality. today was one of those days. plans for the next 7 days suddenly went out the window (and these days were already not what was originally scheduled). and even now the specific details for the next few days are still up in the air. 

because most of what i'm doing involves children and even small and/or fragile infants AND pulls at my heart-strings, i think the sense of urgency and desire to want to know and/or control the situation is even greater...as if their well-being is somehow in my hands. 

got a picture update of cameron tonight (little boy with severe failure-to-thrive that we took to a new foster home last month). as i saw how well he's doing, it was a reminder that...  

god loves these children more than me. 

god knows what these children need more than me. 

god's timing and plans for these children are perfect; mine are far from. 

god can save them; i can not.
god is in control; i am not.

sometimes in the craziness of whatever i'm doing, perspective can be lost. tonight was another gentle reminder that i need to be still and know that he is god, and relax (for us type As) while waiting upon him for what is next. 

see what god is doing in cameron's life...